Something you hope to do in your life.

This one is easy- I want (AND WILL) complete my Bachelor's Degree.

Fin.

Day: 4- Something You Have to Forgive Someone for.

I'm skipping this one because I forgave who I had to a long time ago.
I still remember, but forgiveness has been issued.

Day 3: Something You Have to Forgive Yourself for.

Dear Me,

I love you, and while things haven't always been on the up, you always found a way there.  You are a good and kind person and I suppose that is why I can't understand why you are so hard on yourself.  Sometimes to the point of tears. You have to stop feeling guilty for choices you've made.  Sure, hindsight is always 20/20, but had you made different choices, would you still have the amazing life you have now?  Probably not.  

Why do you beat yourself up about your weight?  You are healthy, yes? So what if you give in and eat sweets or a slice or two of pizza? You want it-have it.  It's all about moderation.  You have GOT to stop enjoying something and then feeling like trash the minute it is over.  Life is short.  Enjoy every minute.

So, you didn't go to the gym every day this week.  You're still making an effort, it's really okay.

Stop questioning everything you do or don't.

I forgive you for scrutinizing yourself.

I forgive you for being ugly to yourself.

I forgive you for having unrealistic expectations.

Now, get out there and be HAPPY.

Day 2: Something You Love About Yourself

Ahhh, Love.   
The life force of all living things...no, wait.  That's the Sun. I LOVE THE SUN!
love, Love, LOVE!
I love music and horror and poetry and puppy dogs and, and, and..
Oh yeah, this is what I love about ME.
Hmmm.  Good question.
I must admit, had I been asked this a few years back I would have struggled to find an accurate answer.  But now, wow,  (at the risk of sounding self absorbed) there are so many things I have discovered that I love about myself.
But, out of all things, I absolutely, postively, without-a-doubt LOVE my ability to LOVE!
I become happy, giddy even at the thought of the word...Love.
I am so passionate (to a fault) about people, things, events, animals...
Is it strange that I can love a melody the same way I love my dog? Perhaps.
I love those in need, those who have wronged me (forgive but never forget) and love the beauty that is in everthing/everyone surrounding us.
My heart swells when I see beautiful architecture, a grandparent hugging a child, someone helping the elderly, a baby learning to walk, an amazing rock performance, etc.
Why?  Because I love life and all aspects of it.
"The sweet is never as sweet without the sour"- Vanilla Sky
SO, yes.  I love that I can still love with all my Soul no matter what cards life has dealt me.

Day One: Something You Hate About Yourself

Hate.
Such a strong word that I seldom use it.
There are a few things that I dislike about myself, some of which I truly have no control over- like, the fact that I will never have a beautiful smile.  Or, that my heart rules all my actions. There are other things that I can control, but allow myself to surrender to defeat.  You know, being on the giving end of a relationship, always working harder than most for the least recognition, eating more than I should/exercising way less.  You get the point.  In most recent years I have been trying my hardest to learn to love myself truly, flaws included. In that process, I have also learned that the part of me that I dislike (hate) the most is the part of me that really needs love the most-my self-esteem.

I probably have the worst self esteem of anyone you know.  And, because of that, people that I love suffer.
My Low Self-Esteem speaks to the jealousy and encourages it.  Low Self -Esteem speaks to envy and blinds me from all the wonderful things in my life.
Low Self-Esteem makes me see things that are not real.
Low Self- Esteem tricks my heart and clouds my mind.
Even still, little by little, I am learning to feed love to the one thing I hate the most in hopes that one day it will shed its ugly lining and blossom into the most beautiful entity it is destined to become.